If we've talked recently, you've heard this, but I'm preparing for a tough time, so I figure it's best to put it out there whole-heartedly and be totally accountable for my emotions. Be warned: I may be off my rocker for the next few months! ;)
My guy, Brenner, is leaving for 3 months to go to South Korea to work at the Olympics. He leaves in just a handful of days and my emotional stability has been a bit chaotic. Haha!
Change is scary.
I stinkin' love travel, but every time I leave home I think about all the things that could possibly, maybe, just might go wrong. Home is comfortable. It's the warm hug that greets me everyday at the door. It's the smiling face I wake up to. Even though I know those things aren't going away forever, it can be hard to stomach the idea of letting go of what I know, even for a while.
I've been an independent person most of my life and love some alone time, but in the last few years I've grown accustomed to coming home to my best friend every day. That guy, he makes me laugh, he knows when to pry and when to to listen. He's truly become my other half. We've talked about our future adventures more times than I can count and, honestly, this is the beginning of them! It isn't without a bit of hesitation that I let my best friend leave the country without me for 3 months, but I'd be lying if I said I wasn't ecstatic for him. You know how they say, "When life gives you lemons, make lemonade." Well this isn't even a lemon! This is the most wonderful orange I could have ever grown, but I'm still hesitant to drink the OJ. It's scary to leap from your well-known everyday life.
That's when the good stuff happens, though.
When you let go of your plan and you let life drive; it isn't meant to be a guided tour. The golden nuggets that you get on the adventures are usually things you didn't even know existed before you left home. You never would have known they were out there. You never would have made them part of your "plan". Certainty becomes the pessimistic lens through which we see life because it blinds us to new opportunity. Undoubtedly there is hesitation, but make the jump! Book the ticket. Seek a new adventure. Find a place you never knew existed.
So, here's to you, and to me: let the change happen. Let the uncertainty be. Your adventure is out there waiting for you to find it.